you guys have to believe how i've missed my little ole blog. one day turned into twenty, & with problems uploading pictures & Christmas and a couple of major life changes...things happen. no blogging happens. but now i'm back. with some pretty big news.
first i'm gonna show you a picture of our littlest family member, then i'll tell you the story.
do you need to see it again to believe it?? kind of like the 20 bazillion times i needed to check the positive pregnancy test to make sure i saw 2 lines?? go ahead. gaze at that lil embryo.
whoa nelly. you probably know, shane & i aren't exactly a fertile couple. we haven't gotten pregnant the good old-fashioned way in over nine years. we had not just one but two fertility problems against us 5 years ago when we were struggling to get pregnant with our twins. "oops" babies just don't happen in our family.
until now. except I hate to call that lil nugget an "oops" baby. maybe a "bonus" baby. maybe a "holy cow we were so happy with 3 and I am 35 and only have 3 bedrooms" baby?? yeah, that sounds about right.
watching a second line come up on a pee stick early one tuesday morning, i instantly became the woman i used to hate. the "oops, i got pregnant (with my 4th baby, no less) & i wasn't even trying" lady. oh y'all, i used to hate her. that lady did not understand me, my problems, my plight. and now, i'm her.
when i called shane that morning to tell him i thought i was pregnant, his response was so classic shane. "awesome, we love kids. we love watching babies grow into people. do you want tacos for dinner?" i kid you not. the man said do you want tacos for dinner after being told we are fixing to add another member to our household. tacos!!
i called the fertility clinic right away to see if they would order me a blood test so we could verify the pregnancy & to make sure my hormone levels could support a pregnancy. they not only did that but have continued to monitor me & brought me in yesterday for a sonogram. i had been having some CRAZY hcg doubling times & they wanted to take a peek. i would be lying if i said i wasn't worried about another set of twins. ya know, just because 66 2/3% of my pregnancies have been twins and all.
we sat in the office at the texas fertility center yesterday feeling a bit incredulous. we talked about sitting there 5 years ago, fixing to go get a peek at our miracle baby (which turned out to be babies). i sat there just over a year ago, me pregnant again, with the two thrilled-and-nervous parents next to me as we waited to get a peek at their miracle baby (which turned out to be babies). so to be sitting there for a THIRD pregnancy?? it didn't feel real.
our sweet doctor came in & was wonderful. he labeled this pregnancy a "spontaneous pregnancy" & we giggled. it sounded kind of immaculate conception-like, thought immaculate it wasn't. we got a peek at that ONE tiny babe & got to listen to it's heart beating away & i couldn't help it as my eyes flooded with tears.
a BABY. ONE baby. my FOURTH baby when there was a very real possibility i was only going to have one baby. a baby that we didn't beg God for yet He brought into being for His glory. another chance to meet one of His good & perfect gifts.
so there you go. team watwood party of 6. i'm not going to lie & say i have been running around all thrilled & excited for the past 2 1/2 weeks. i am still a little fearful, & definitely still overwhelmed. but believe you me, this miracle is NOT lost on us. this baby is very much a wanted baby & is going to be welcomed into a family of so much love.
and yes, we had tacos for dinner.